green (like the colour)

Last year was a pretty hard year for me for certain reasons (although there were lots of good parts, too) and in comparison, this year seems to be a very positive one for me, although not without its challenges. I like where I'm living and who I'm living with, I like where I'm working, and I'm meeting lots of interesting people, and I feel fed in my spirituality. On the other had, I haven't had as many chances to catch up with some of my older friends and I don't see my family as often as I'd like. My life is quite different to what it was a year ago, and for some reason this makes me think that I should be different, too. But I'm not. I'm very much the same person.

A lot of the great things about this year, all the different things that are also good things, probably wouldn't be happening if it wasn't for some of the lousy things things from last year, things that are still ongoing this year. But if somethings didn't happen the way they happened, I wouldn't be here where I am.

It is something to try and wrap one's head around, but although I could think endlessly on it, I will instead choose to accept things the way they happened, good and bad, and thank God for looking after me.

Also, I was looking through some of my old files on my computer and found this draft of a children's story I started writing once and thought that this would be as good a place as any to share it.



( I Wish I Was a Grown-Up! )

The boys had their housewarming last weekend, which was fun. We are having ours this weekend, which I hope will also be fun. Also, Osama Bin Laden's been killed... I've been thinking about that. I'm not American, so obviously I don't have as many raw emotions regarding this man or what he did as some would. I do know that he served evil. It has reminded me of something I've often thought about as a Christian.

I've never really been able to make up my mind whether I'm a passifist or not. I certainly have a lot of sympathies with passifists... and I think I was a lot more of a passifist when I was younger. And... I think that's appropriate. Perhaps all children should be passifists.

But the older I get, the more I understand the role of the protector and the need for justice in the world. However, I think the human heart is too prone to violent tendencies that we do have to be very careful.

As a Christian, what do I think of Osama Bin Laden's death? I think that perhaps he had to die, but I think our motives need to be examined carefully as we respond to his death. I think he had to die. I think the Americans did the right thing by killing him, and considering my tendencies towards passifist ideals in the past, this thought actually surprises me a little.

I am not glad that he is dead, though. Don't get me wrong, I am not sorry that he is dead, but I am sorry that he made it necessary by his actions and his hate that he had to be killed. I am sorry for the circumstance of his soul that made him dying in this way necessary, that his complete disregard for life made the sacrifice of his life necessary.

I think it's important for Christians to have a sombre attitude towards his death. I think relief and a sense of closure are good feelings to have, nor do I think there is anything wrong with being hopeful for the possibility of peace because of this. But I think it's important to not let our minds and our hearts to be moved for violence, not to rejoice in the violence. The violence of his death may have been necessary, but that someone had to kill him is not something that should cause us joy.

I think that, now that he is dead, it is time for forgiveness.

Dear Dreamwidth,

Hi! My name is green (like the colour). I've just joined this little community here. I'm looking forward to getting to know you better.

I'll probably use this blog for whatever I feel like at the time. Thoughts, dreams, stories, rants, I don't know. We'll see how it goes.

I hope you'll like me. Not that I'm going to base my sense of self-worth on your opinion of me or anything, I certainly hope I don't come across as too needy or anything like that, and for your information it's perfectly normal to want be accepted. We are social creatures, after all. But don't think I'm going to slit my wrists if you all decide you don't like me. That is to say, um... here's hoping we get along?

Ahem. Anyway... I once read in a psychology book that being rejected by an online community of Klu Klux Klan members causes slight physical distress in a person, which I thought was interesting. I suppose, even if it's a group of people whose values you despise, you'd still like to know that you could belong if you wanted to. You want to be the one who rejects them, not the other way around.

I have no intention of rejecting you guys, though. That would be pretty stupid, joining dreamwidth only for the purpose of rejecting it... who does that?

I should probably stop typing now.

Yours Truly,

green (like the colour).